Before finding out I was pregnant, I was a full time student going through a very rough relationship with my ex. I had recently been in the hospital for suicidal thoughts and found myself desperately seeking help. I wasn’t planning on keeping my child. I cried because we were not trying to get pregnant and I knew that we would not be able to “make it”.
When I first came to CPC's Keim Center, my advocate and the nurse were very kind and did not judge me. I felt like they genuinely wanted to help. There were many times throughout my pregnancy that I considered both abortion and adoption. I was afraid I couldn’t love a baby, but I also knew I was too selfish to place my child up for adoption. At my initial appointment, I had the ultrasound and ultimately, I connected with my daughter when I saw her and her heartbeat on the screen.
However, after leaving that same appointment, I was still considering abortion. My circumstances had not changed. Things with her father were not in a good place and I was afraid of the unknown. I remember having scheduled an appointment to have an abortion right at the gestation cut-off date. When I arrived, I couldn’t go through with it because I couldn’t get the ultrasound image out of my head. That was my baby on the screen.
During my pregnancy, I kept in contact with my advocate and through her received a lot of support. The Keim Centers offered me so much help when I needed it most.
I gave birth to my healthy and beautiful daughter, Emersyn, on July 24th. I love her smile, scent, personality, and absolutely everything about her. My favorite thing about being a mother is that there's this child who will love me forever and that I get to watch her grow into a young woman. She gives me so much motivation to do well in life; she makes me a better person.
If you cannot participate in CPC’s Walk for LIFE as a fundraising walker this year, please consider supporting Emersyn and I as we Walk for LIFE. All donations are tax deductible. Thank you!